When was the last time you had a good cry? Perhaps, not since you were a child, if you are a man who was raised traditionally. Even women are reluctant to cry, especially when they have a professional image to maintain.
For the last few weeks I have been feeling loss and grief. Because I can no longer really cry–I just don’t “believe” my emotions anymore–the feelings manifested as a rather strange “flu,” with symptoms that affected my respiratory system.
One of the laws of nature is that all (creative) energy needs to be expressed: if you bottle your emotions up on one place, they will find another way to flow (express themselves). Because I couldn’t cry, the energy of my emotions flowed into a symbolic expression of what was bothering me.
Interpreting physical symptoms as an indicator of a deeper-lying disorder in the underlying emotional system is a well-respected way of understanding the whole person; psychologist and healers are on the forefront of this “new” science.
Quantum physics readily explains how thought-forms can become reality. As I wrote my book, Parallel Mind, The Art of Creativity, it became evident that emotions play a huge part in the creative process. We see it most readily in the body as unconsciously-generated diseases, but our society frowns upon self-healing techniques–implying that you should trust the doctor and his diagnostic machines rather than your own intuition.
However, it is slowly becoming more “mainstream” to understand that all illnesses have an emotional basis. The more you suppress your emotions, the bigger the illness that finally emerges. Certain illnesses are preceded by years of matching emotions: for instance, breast cancer often indicates that the woman never felt nurtured by her own mother. Heart disease is often experienced by someone who cannot experience unconditional love.
Think of everything as a symbol or metaphor.
Artists may have an easier time with this concept for two reasons: they have been trained to see and work with metaphors, and they can use their work as a way to express, rather than suppress, emotions. The mind deals only with symbols–it cannot experience anything directly. For the tongue to taste, the skin to feel, the ears to hear, or the eyes to see, we have to use the language of the mind, which is symbolic in nature. The mind actively compares old symbols (established memories) with the new sensation to categorize, prioritize and file it.
Caroline Myss is a famous medical intuitive who works with the entire mental/emotional makeup of people. She brings in the chakra system, and symbology to understand her client’s physical ailments. In my case, the chakras represented by this illness would be the 4th (the heart–trust), 5th (speaking your truth), and 6th (the “third eye–your life mission and personal vision). So, just like a Tarot reading, we can piece together the meanings of the above symbols to get a reading on the meaning of the physical disorder. Since most illnesses are just blockages of (creative) energy, I interpret it the following way:
Relax, let your heart trust your inner guidance (your intuition), know that once you clear the heart of all wounds, you will be able to more clearly speak, and move more into the stream of your passion, completing your purpose with joy and ease. Joy and ease are the natural result of the flow caused by the removal of all emotional blockages.
I see the grief as a final letting go of all the past concepts and emotions that no longer serve me. Since these ideas and feelings belong only to the past, they are dead, and I need to express (expel) them. The flu-like symptoms are the last step in ridding myself of all of that emotional tar from the past. The emotions of loss and grief is just a final–necessary–recognition of the loss of the past that is no longer here.
I spent many years trying to figure out emotions. Why do we have emotions? What are they for?
Stay tuned for my next post on how to use emotions in order to create whatever you want.
Copyright 2012 Aliyah Marr
